Journal Entry – December 2003
By Brenda Crawford-Bee on Jul 8, 2008 in Gratitude, Self Growth, Spiritual Growth
“Since my last writing there have been some changes. I finally took the plunge and bought a newer car. Last Saturday I spent the early morning hours and into the early afternoon cleaning the apartment big time! I scrubbed every room, refrigerator, stove, walls, and floors; gathered clothing and foodstuff to donate to the Mission downtown and in the process cleared my mind of all the dross that had accumulated over the past few months.
Afterwards I felt free and I was ready to make a big step forward. Tom and I went shopping for a car. It was not without a little bit it drama, but on the overall things worked out well. We were there for a very long time—over and one-half hours! It seemed that nobody could find the keys to our car parked that was parked in front of the new car, nor could the keys to the new car be located. It was at this point I announced that we were leaving and would return the next day after Church and sign the papers and take delivery of the car. I also said that the car was not meant for us because of all the problems. Just when Tom and I were ready to drive off the lot on our way home, someone yelled they’d found the keys. The salesman said he guess this deal was meant to be because they’d found the keys!”
As I read this entry from 2003, I realize how naïve I was and that what had happened was a ploy that used car salesman use to sell cars. At that time I did not know that. Personally, I had never bought a car before. In my heart and in my mind “it was meant to be” that we should have this car, that all the waiting and the hoops the sales force had us jumping through had paid off and what probably wouldn’t have happened for us did in fact happen. I viewed it as a blessing. I gave thanks and gratitude for such a blessing. I didn’t view it as me being a victim of used car salesmen tactics.
Even today, I do not view myself as a victim when I fall prey to people pulling the proverbial wool over my eyes as it were. I have learned to take responsibility in all things, good, bad or whatever. It’s not what happens to you necessarily but rather what happens for you and how you look at it. I chose then as I choose now to view everything as a blessing, a gift and try to see things from a higher perspective, the whole, always seeing an occurrence, an event, and an experience from a 360 degree perspective. I’d love to say this is one thing that I have master but I cannot at present.
I am grateful for the gift of another day because I know, rain or shine, that my day will unfold in blessings too bountiful to count.
Blessings,
Brenda
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