Look Deeper: Love Lights the Way
By Brenda Crawford-Bee on Aug 30, 2009 in Blessings and Lessons, Consciousness, Gratitude, Inspirational, Love, Motivational, Self Growth, Self Improvement, Spiritual Growth
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Since I began my spiritual journey back to God, I have been compelled to look more deeply. When I am in a state of being love, giving love and receiving love, it is my Spiritual Guide, who reminds me that God loves me so much that I am being given the opportunity to learn this about myself, so that I may learn to be a more loving spiritual being.
I would like to share with you an excerpt from my journal that talks about an incident, and the range of emotions I went through. It took place during a time that I was participating in a training program slated to last five weeks, and I barely made it through the first two weeks, which affected my relationships with love ones and others.
The journal entry starts out:
“A long day, a tiresome day, a productive day; a day of just being, and a day of allowing; a day of learning, listening, understanding and comprehension; a day of doing, of not doing; a day of exploring, of exercising patience, being tolerant of others and of situations; a day of compassion, a day of completion; a day of beginnings and also a day of closure. In between I experienced, subtly, impatience, fatigue, agitation, anxiety and moments of being uppity…while at the same time, feeling down about the general state of things going on in my life, and feeling down on myself and my ability to ‘measure up.’ I felt inadequate that I was not succinct in saying what I really wanted to say, and that I was sometimes, unkind by saying what I needed to say.”
“I felt crippled and burdensome; melancholy and somewhat fatalistic about what the future held for me, truly. There were also moments of clarity, positivity, certainty, friendliness, without guile or malice toward anyone, and even feeling optimistic about myself and my future.” [Pause]
After having gone through it all, Divine Spirit began to speak to me, to my heart, in golden-tongued wisdom, from a spirit-filled friend. After listening to him and contemplating on what he said to me, I was able to use his words as a seed, and they helped me see how love indeed lights the way for me.
It reminded me that God loves the selfish me; the petty me; the angry me; the cruel me; the imperfect me; the confused and fearful me; the sick me, the anxious me and the misguided me… and that when I am in a state of being love, giving love and receiving love, that’s when I truly know that I am that light of God. There is also one thing I know with absolute certainty, and that is that I exist because God loves me unconditionally, unwaveringly and unceasingly.
While experiencing the consequences of the choices that I made, my Spiritual Guide, Divine Spirit, was always with me; standing by me and allowed me to see clearly that when you look more deeply–Love is always the answer.
Blessings,
Brenda
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