I missed one morning of not writing in my journal and feeling guilty as hell!  But, I’m back at it, thank God! A small voice from within me, whispers, “This is a test — do all that you have agreed to do.”  “I will, I will,” I cried! I promised myself then, to do that for myself every day and I have kept that one promised made many years ago.  I had a dream one night a few months ago about a white car; it was traveling in reverse, up an incline. Alongside the hill stood a female observer who kept repeating the words, “interesting, interesting…”  There was a spiritual lesson in this for me but I did not know exactly what it could be.  After a day of contemplation, what I came up with was that I was traveling backward in my spiritual unfolding.  I accepted that truth and thought no more about it.  Over the next couple of days, I began to think about leading a book discussion class, but I didn’t have a title of any one particular book that I wanted to discuss. One morning after practicing a spiritual exercise, singing the word HU (an ancient name for God and a holy sound and for me, a love song to The Creator).

Being silent for a few minutes in contemplation, I glanced up at the ceiling of my living room. I saw some imperfections in the stucco that I’d surely seen before, but never really seen, if you know what I mean. There were three jagged lines and they formed the letter “Z”.  This has a great significance for me.  My mind began to wander about the duties and challenges that I faced, and my first thought was that this was a way for the Master to get my attention, to have me focus my attention on more of the infinite and the divine. What a revelation I thought. I then got my day started.  I checked my e-mails, wrote letters and sent cards to friends, called a few people I hadn’t shared with in awhile.  It was then that I remembered I hadn’t read anything uplifting to start my day. I glanced across the room and saw a book lying on a chair; I walked across the room, picked it up and opened the book at random.

I opened the book to a story in which my Master told about a dream of a woman, also a spiritual seeker, he said to her, “Here is a spiritual dream, so that when you have one you will have a measure to compare it with.” I’d no idea how close to home it hit for me! The story was about a lady who was standing alongside the ocean. She was looking at the mounds of sand and found some booklets buried there.  A Spiritual Master was there and read the message from one of the booklets for her.  The message said, “You’ve won a white used car”.  What stood out for her was that it was a “used” car.  She wondered, “Why not a new car?”  Still hoping for a “new” car, she pulled another booklet from the mound and the Master read, “You’ve won $113,000 in groceries.”  Then the spiritual meaning became clear for her (as it did for me) that she’d taken a step backward in her spiritual life.  The seeker was shocked to see just how attached she’d become to worldly things – and so was I.  “Wow,” I said aloud, “this is proof that I have taken a step backward in my spiritual life.”  I too had become attached to the material things, and this was a sure confirmation that I sought.  It left no doubt that I’d interpreted my dream in exactly the right way — the same way!  I couldn’t have hoped for nor asked for an interpretation or proof more clear than what I’d received.  The spiritual significance of a car, for me, is that it most often represents a state of consciousness.  A car, like a state of consciousness, transports you from one point to another.  You travel (in both the outer world and the inner worlds) to another level or destination. Though I’m not sure if the car in my dream was a used car, the point was that I was trying to travel up hill – in reverse!  I’d been trying to gain a higher state of consciousness by traveling in reverse on my journey to higher ground.  This was quite a humbling revelation.

A friend, who is an exciting and creative artist, gifted me with a small picture-like postcard. In the painting, there is a beautiful little red car traveling up a steep incline, a hill.  The scene is filled with all kinds of foliage, green grass, flowers, blue skies and yes, a few clouds.  I love that picture; it’s just one of my favorites.  Seated in the back seat of the red car is a woman smiling, appearing to be enjoying her journey uphill.  Actually, the woman seated in the back looks a lot like my friend.  But this particular morning, the woman in the seat took on another identity.  The woman is me!  It is I who sits in the seat of the little red car – this time, traveling uphill!  This revelation has allowed me to travel more easily into the higher planes, into higher states of consciousness.  What a way to start the day I thought.  And to think, I’m the best today, than I’ve ever been spiritually in all my lifetimes!

This is how I start my day, every day, with a declaration that I am the best today than I’ve ever been spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically. I speak those words to myself, Soul, and to the universe.  What are you declaring today?

Blessings,

Brenda

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